I’ve been feeling this guilt that I haven’t shared any pictures on here for a while. I know that some of you are anxiously waiting for me to do so. Between this being a busy season and my being almost 6 months pregnant with a gargantuan amount of Doctors appointments, I am a little behind on blogging. Here is one of my precious little girl. I will post more of my families soon!
Yes, I know this blog has been very neglected! I do, however, have a really good reason as to why. Any guesses?……….
I’m PREGNANT! I’ve been keeping this secret for so long, and to be honest, still hesitate to announce it in fear of jinxing it. I’m do April 5th (Brent’s Birthday!) and am currently 22 weeks. See, I told you, I’ve kept this secret for more than half of my pregnancy now. We are expecting a little girl who’s name I’m keeping a secret for now.
This pregnancy has been unlike any of my other 3. I’ve been so nervous and have had a hard time excepting and believing that we will be able to keep this baby girl. I’m sure this is normal given what we have been through. My doctor has been able to find a cause to my not being able to keep my pregnancies. Apparently I have a clotting problem that affects the baby during all 3 trimesters. So, because of this clotting problem I get to do daily blood thinner injections in my abdomen. Fun Huh! It really isn’t as bad as I though it would be. It’s not my favorite by any means and if you look at my stomach it looks like I’ve been attacked by countless paintball gun attacks, so my bikini is going to have to stay packed away for awhile….(as if I even wear one! YIKES)
So, keep us in your thoughts and prayers and please forgive the blog neglect. I will post some families soon! I have some amazing clients that would be wrong of me not to share!!
After Kylee and Nick’s Maternity session, I couldn’t wait for this little guy to come! What a joy he was to photograph. He was by far my easiest baby I’ve ever photographed. He stayed asleep the entire time and for a bonus didn’t pee on a single blanket….a record! Baby S is as adorable as they come. He is well loved by his parents and from what I hear, his grandparents as well. I love being able to cuddle all my newborns. It’s the best job in the world! I can’t wait for our 6 month session!
What can I say, my Dad is a miracle worker and was able to totally redo my hard drive and give me sooo much more space to work with. This is why I will never switch to Mac….I have PC connections within my computer savvy family. Thank goodness because they have saved me more than once.
Just wanting to let you know that my dear computer has decided it needs some time off and has went out on me. So it’s now spending time at my Dad’s to be repaired. SO if any of you have emailed I will not receive it so for the time being, to contact me, please email me at email@example.com or just call me at 480-232-5421.
There is nothing sweeter and more fulling, with my job, than being able to photograph newborns. This little angel was only 7 days old and more precious than words. She has the most beautiful head of hair. She, even at only 7 days old, already has such a cute personality and really wasn’t up for too much sleeping. She wanted to be apart of all the fun! Although her Mom told me later that we really wore her out with all the pictures because she slept and slept after our session. My daughter LOVES looking at all the baby pictures and literally makes oohs and awws sounds when I show them to her. She just adores them as much as I do. I have to say though, she is a little biased when it comes to girl babies…she plays favoritism. She just loves this little J!
So, this was a big week over here in my household! My daughter, my only child, has started kindergarten. It’s been a huge transition because in our district, it’s all day kindergarten. It’s a very fun and exciting time for all of us, but I can’t help but feel a little sad that she’s growing up too quickly. I was telling Brent that I feel like we only get them for 5 short years, and then the schools get them for the rest. A little unfair and slightly exaggerated, I know, but I know it’s for her best.
She did really well this week and in fact by day 3 would run through the gate so that she could be the first one on the swings. She just learned how to swing on her own, and she’s so proud of herself! The only really hard day was yesterday when it dawned on her that this is an everyday thing. She cried and begged to come home with me. I held it together until she was out of site, then I cried. I know it will get easier, and I’m so thankful for her amazing teacher, who is so sweet and caring, just as I hoped she would be for my daughter.
Here are some pictures of her on her first day of school.
I love this age! They are so full of innocence and sweetness plus they are usually past the I’m going to run away from the camera stage too which is great! I love these Mother Daughter pictures and would adore having some of my very own like these too. How special it is for them to have these! Hmmm….do you think my daughter will sit still enough for me to run back and forth from behind the camera to in front of camera? This location I found on one of my location hunts and it’s a real gem. I’m thinking I want my fall family pictures done here. Now, I just need to figure out our outfits. My Husband is going to love me!!
I know this gorgeous girl can’t wait for these! What can I say, I adore this session. I’m in love with Maternity probably because when I was pregnant I refused to have any photos taken and I now regret that decision! I feel that pregnancy makes you, who is pregnant, feel undesirable and those of us who see you see the real you, a glowing beautiful lady! Kylee was smart and not only booked a maternity session, but my one year baby portrait plan as well. What a wonderful keepsake to have forever!
These two were perfect and oh so comfortable in front of the camera. I loved every minute and most likely wore the pair out. I’m telling you, I can’t wait for this little guy to come and for me to be able to photograph him. I love my job!
I debated on whether or not to share this, but finally concluded that you have all been with me and have supported us through our loss of our son. I knew this day would be hard but, I am so grateful that I have so much love surrounding me to help ease my pain. I’m also grateful for the knowledge of eternal families and that I will get to see him and be with him again.
Today, if you haven’t guessed is the day I was due to have our Son, Cade Christian. Today was the day that I was supposed to be able to hold him in my arms and give him sweet hugs and kisses. Today was the day that my daughter was going to have a little brother and us a son. Today, for me, never came. I’m not going to lie, it’s hard for me to write this and to deal with what I’ve been trying not to feel. I’ve been dreading this day and what it was going to do to me. I only hope that it will be all uphill from here. I have had it in my head that once the due date was past that I could finally lay it to rest and think of the happy peaceful memories I have.
It is so hard for us to get pregnant, in fact, I would say nearly impossible and so because of this I’m so grateful for my daughter and the absolute joy she brings into my life. She is my tender mercy.
Here are some pictures I would like to share from Cade’s Funeral. Taken by my good friend Megan Papworth. If you would like the full story of what happened you can read our blog post here.