I’ve been trying to keep myself busy as much as possible and I came across this delicious recipe for sugar cookies and had to try it out.  This came from a client’s blog and WOW this girl knows her way around the Kitchen!  You have to go and check her out.  These are the BEST sugar cookies no joke!  If you make these, post some pictures on your blog and leave me a comment so I can see your creation!

My little helper.  Don’t you love the apron!!??  I had a mom and daughter apron made to match.  You can get them here

Ashlee has decided to take up the business as well   Actually, this was a camera that was given to us in the hospital when we delivered Cade so that incase we didn’t have our own camera, we could use this one.  Ashlee was so happy to be able to have “Cade’s Camera”  She is so special and sweet and makes me smile even on those days when it’s hard to smile.

“Mom why can’t I see the pictures on my camera like you can on yours!?” 

On January 22, 2010 at 4:00am….Cade Christian was born.  He was not due to come until July 11th 2010.  He was about 16 weeks along.  He weighed 1.9 oz and was 7 in long.

How did this happen?  We don’t know, but on the 20th I went in for a routine visit and the doctor couldn’t find the heart beat with the Doppler.  I sill wasn’t worried though because of the way the placenta had placed itself, both doctor and I knew that it may be harder to find.  So, we then went to the ultrasound machine and there confirmed my worst fears….no heart beat and no moving baby.  He had died sometime that morning.  We think it’s due to all of the hemorrhaging I had because of the sub chronic hemorrhage.  It also looked like that blood clot that had formed caused the placenta to abrupt too much for it to repair.

I was in labor for about 13 hours.  Although this may sound horrible beyond belief, I feel like it was a blessing in disguise to be able to deliver him.  We were able to hold him and see his perfect tiny body.  I felt such a deeper love and connection for him the moment I was able to hold him.  The hosptial were I delivered was amazing and they went above and beyond the call of duty.  I have never felt so much compassion from all the nurses and staff.  They brought us flowers, took pictures of Cade, they did plaster prints of his hands and feet, they made a box full of all his keepsakes and momentous for us to treasure always.  They dressed him in the most adorable diaper and baby bunting you could ever see.  They even helped us dress him for his graveside burial.  The cemetery were he is buried also did everything free of charge…AMAZING!

Our family was devastated to say the least.  We have waited 5 long years for this miracle, but it wasn’t part of God’s plan for us to keep our baby boy.  I know that he is our angel and our perfect son.  We will see him again.

How have I been?  I’m doing okay, although, most definitely not my self.  I have good days and bad days.  I’ve cried a lot, which isn’t something I usually do.  I don’t do good by myself, so if Brent isn’t home, my Mom is usually with me.  Thank goodness for Moms!  I know it will get easier as time goes on.  I’m grateful for all of the outpouring of love and concern that has been shown.  It’s helped to see that so many people truly care for us.

What does this mean for my photography business? I’m still here, but I’m taking some time off to grieve and go back to my normal self. ( I’m a little emotional right now)   I am still taking emails and such and if you were hoping to schedule with me, still email me and I will let you when I can do it.

A BIG SORRY to all of you photographers who have emailed me asking questions, I promise I will get back to you….if you need to have a questions answered sooner please email me again.

This is the day I delivered Cade….  I wanted to share something with all of you.

By random number generator….

MEGS IS THE WINNER OF THE $75 GIFT CARD TO ANTHROPOLOGIE!!!   CONGRATS!!

Megs wrote: ” Your photographs radiate with light, color, and emotion! They are bright and convey a sense of peace and happiness. I can tell that you are truly passionate about people as well as photography. Very professional!”

Thanks Megs!!!

ps.  I will be in touch with you to get your info so that I can send it.

Check back soon for another fun contest in December!

Okay, so I’m wayyyy behind!  The Winter/Fall gave me and my daughter a BIG welcome by supplying us with a flu/cold that most definitely isn’t 24 hours!!!   I’m just now able to function enough to do what I can to catch up.  An ER visit was almost a must for me, but I was able to push through it and here I am still trying to stay afloat!  I’ve had to rejuggle so many sessions, thank goodness for wonderful understanding clients!  Boo on you flu season!  Here is a sneak peek that I know Mom is super excited to see!

So, this session was supposed to be held in this gorgeous field that I had specifically scouted out for this particular family….well, when we got there on there session day, someone decided they needed to mow down the entire field leaving only the brownest dirt and trees.  CRAP!!!  So, we improvised and it turned out gorgeous!  I love the fall feel to these.  Of course this gorgeous family can outshine any background I put them in!   Love you guys!

PS. Remember to Enter the contest a post down from this one!

If you don’t know already….I ADORE pictures that show family connection and love!  They are so sweet and priceless and every time you walk by it hanging on your wall, it will put a smile on your face regardless of the mood you may be in. 

This one is my FAVORITE!  Makes me smile everytime I see it!  I love that you can tell what each kid is thinking!

I am fully into the Christmas season and trying so hard to keep my head afloat.  I love this time of year working with past and new clients.

For those of you who don’t follow me on facebook here are some recent pictures that I haven’t had a chance to post here.  We went out on a location scout and I LOVE this place.  The lighting was beautiful and so was “Tinkerbell”